A Date with Luyu – Cui Yongyuan 4
lŭ yù ：I feel it strange that you are always happy whenever I meet you. I feel that you are happier, funnier and more relaxed than I am. But I tell myself that you can’t have a good sleep at night and you are a little depressed. Which one is the real you?
cuī yŏng yuán ：There was a well-known story about a person in Italy. He went to see the psychologist one day. He was in torment. So the psychologist told him to see the happy clown at the gateway of the city. But the truth was the patient was actually the clown himself.
cuī yŏng yuán ：In fact, the patients with depression are exactly like that.There is no problem for him facing friends and relatives during the day. But you won’t tell his problems, because he is suffering inside.
cuī yŏng yuán ：For example, you can still come to talk to me when it attacks, but I am a bit moody. My hands sweat like a flowing fountain when I talk to you. My whole body is soaked, but I feel very cold in the heart.That makes the body very uncomfortable. None of you will have such experience.
lŭ yù ：Is that the pressure from TV industry?
cuī yŏng yuán ：It doesn’t matter. It is an inherited disease which relates to the patients themselves and the growing environment.
cuī yŏng yuán ：The depressed patients accounts for almost 15 percent in China. But those working in TV industry may be less than 0.1 percent of all. Its incentive is very simple. When you are like a pack of explosives full of fuses, everything will explode you easily.
cuī yŏng yuán ： Why do we call the diseases with certain names? Such as depression, anxiety disorder, that is because there are no reasons for the emergence of them. It could the changes of seasons or places. It makes them have such feelings unexpectly.
cuī yŏng yuán ： I think the disease is one problem. Even without it, I can barely hold on to myself anyway because of my high standard.
lŭ yù ： So what is your standard?
cuī yŏng yuán ： I always want to do all sorts of attempts, I don’t want to do the boring things that others have done before.
cuī yŏng yuán ：Every time when I am on a study tour abroad, or when I read books or newspaper, if I find something new, I will tell my team or my boss that I have a new idea and I want to make it happen. Some of them are particularly good, but if they aren’t adopted, I will feel very depressed.
lŭ yù ： Are you an easy-going person at work?
cuī yŏng yuán ：Not really. I am grumpy and I am always strict with others. When I showed you around in the campus just now, I felt very uncomfortable to find some slits there on the posters.
cuī yŏng yuán ： Eating together and playing pingpong together are two separate things. We should have such standards when working, so we can eat and exercise together. Otherwise, why do we work together?If we can’t have the job done well, why do we work together?